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- DirectorAndré TéchinéStarsSandrine KiberlainKacey Mottet KleinCorentin FilaDamien lives with his mother Marianne, a doctor, while his father is on a tour of duty abroad. He is bullied by Thomas, whose mother is ill. The boys find themselves living together when Marianne invites Thomas to come and stay with them.
- DirectorMarcel GislerStarsMax HubacherAaron AltarasJessy MoravecTwo young football players get caught up between the politics of the game and the politics of love.
- DirectorJakob M. ErwaStarsLouis HofmannJannik SchümannSabine TimoteoAfter a summer spent with his his best friend Kat to escape his family, Phil goes back to school and starts to question his feelings towards Nicholas, a new classmate.
- DirectorSasha KingBrian O'DonnellStarsMatthew FriasCailan RoseLuis Gabriel CañasWhen Benny and Christopher, college freshmen, meet at a football game and fall in love, a tragic event from the past threatens to tear them apart.
- DirectorJennifer GerberStarsDavid RysdahlZachary BoothRaymond McAnallyA secret love affair between a southern Baptist preacher and a young drifter challenges the equilibrium of a growing church.
- DirectorAndrew SteggallStarsJuliet StevensonAlex LawtherPhénix BrossardA nuclear family unravels in the South of France.
- DirectorNils-Erik EkblomStarsMikko KauppilaValtteri LehtinenSanna MajuriScrewed (orig. Pihalla) is a Finnish drama film about two 17-year-olds, Miku and Elias, who find themselves, and each other, during a summer in the Finnish countryside and discover that love is not as easy as it seems.
- DirectorDidier BivelStarsPatrick TimsitBarbara SchulzBruno PutzuluNathan goes to a high school party and meets Louis. The two find themselves out of sight and kissing, but someone takes a photo of them. When the photo is placed online, a storm overtakes their lives.
- DirectorJon GarciaStarsNick FerrucciBenjamin FarmerCurtis Edward JacksonThis third and final film of the Falls trilogy revisits former Mormon missionaries Chris and RJ, six years after they first fell in love and were disciplined for it, as they formulate a plan to be together at long last.
- DirectorKeith BehrmanStarsJosh WigginsDarren MannTaylor HicksonTwo popular teen boys, best friends since childhood, discover their lives, families, and girlfriends dramatically upended after an unexpected incident occurs on the night of a 17th birthday party.
- DirectorPapu CurottoStarsIgnacio RogersEsteban MasturiniJoaquín ParadaTwo boyhood chums, separated soon after sexually awakening together, re-meet as young men with unspoken sexual tensions lying between them.
- DirectorCamille Vidal-NaquetStarsFélix MaritaudFarid-Eric BernardNicolas DiblaLeo is 22 and sells his body on the street for a bit of cash. The men come and go, and he stays right here - longing for love. He doesn't know what the future will bring. He hits the road. His heart is pounding.
- DirectorMichael MayerStarsNicholas JacobMichael AloniJameel KhouryA drama centered on the love affair between two men on opposite sides of the Mid-East conflict: Palestinian student Nimer and Roy, an Israeli lawyer.
- DirectorMischa KampStarsGijs BlomKo ZandvlietJonas SmuldersA sexually awakening gay teen athlete finds himself in a budding relationship with his mutually attracted relay race teammate.
- DirectorDaniel RibeiroStarsGhilherme LoboFabio AudiTess AmorimLeonardo is a blind teenager searching for independence. His everyday life, the relationship with his best friend Giovana, and the way he sees the world change completely with the arrival of Gabriel.
- DirectorJonah MarkowitzStarsTrevor WrightBrad RoweTina HolmesWhen his college dreams are sidelined by family obligations, a young man finds comfort in surfing with his best friend's brother.
- DirectorBavo DefurneStarsBen Van den HeuvelEva van der GuchtThomas CoumansA teenage boy's search for love finds him fixated on a boy who lives nearby.
- DirectorStephan LacantStarsHanno KofflerMax RiemeltAttila BorlanA soon-to-be-father policeman falls for a gay fellow officer and his life starts falling apart.
- DirectorMarco KreuzpaintnerStarsRobert StadloberKostja UllmannMiriam MorgensternA close friendship between two crew teammates is tested when one slowly discovers he's gay and attracted to the other.
- DirectorDaniel RibeiroStarsGhilherme LoboTess AmorimFabio AudiThe arrival of a new student in school changes Leonardo's life. This 15 year-old blind teenager has to deal with the jealousy of his friend Giovana while figuring out the new feelings he's having towards his new friend, Gabriel.
- DirectorJohn ButlerStarsFionn O'SheaArdal O'HanlonAmy HubermanNed and Conor are forced to share a bedroom at their boarding school. The loner and the star athlete at this rugby-mad school form an unlikely friendship until it's tested by the authorities.
- DirectorAndrew HaighStarsTom CullenChris NewJonathan RaceAfter a drunken house party with his straight mates, Russell heads out to a gay club. Just before closing time he picks up Glen but what's expected to be just a one-night stand becomes something else, something special.
- DirectorFrancis LeeStarsJosh O'ConnorAlec SecareanuGemma JonesSpring. Yorkshire. Young farmer Johnny Saxby numbs his daily frustrations with binge drinking and casual sex, until the arrival of a Romanian migrant worker for lambing season ignites an intense relationship that sets Johnny on a new path.
- DirectorNeil ArmfieldStarsRyan CorrSarah SnookFrancesco FerdinandiThe warm, funny and achingly sad story of the 15-year-long love affair between Timothy Conigrave and the boy he fell in love with at high school, John Caleo.
- DirectorJoey KuhnStarsJonathan GordonJason RalphHaaz SleimanOn Manhattan's gilded Upper East Side, a young gay painter is torn between an obsession with his infamous socialite best friend and a promising new romance with an older foreign concert pianist.
- DirectorMarco BergerStarsManuel VignauMateo ChiarinoLuz PalazónMartin seeks for a temporary job at Eugenio's house. When they recognize to be childhood friends, Eugenio offers him work for the summer. A power and desire game starts and their relationship grows beyond their friendship.
- DirectorSimon ShoreStarsBen SilverstoneBrad GortonCharlotte BrittainA tenderly romantic coming-of-age story as two boys in a British school fall in love.
- DirectorKerstin KarlhuberStarsMichael GrantTom WopatGregory HarrisonA young man returns to his family farm, after a long stay in ex-gay conversion therapy, and is torn between the expectations of his emotionally distant father, and the memories of a past, loving relationship he has tried to bury.
- DirectorJon GarciaStarsNick FerrucciBenjamin FarmerHannah BarefootChris and RJ reunite five years after coming out to their families and their church as gay men, where the factors that led to their separation are revealed as they mourn the death of their mutual friend Rodney.
- DirectorJ.C. CalcianoStarsNicholas DownsDavid LorenAdam HussA socially shunned columnist finds his romantic match online, but messaging under the wrong account causes his sleazy roommate's picture to be forwarded, creating an identity mix-up.
- DirectorC. Jay CoxStarsWes RamseySteve SandvossMary Kay PlaceA promiscuous gay party animal falls for a young Mormon missionary, leading to crisis, cliché, and catastrophe.
- DirectorRob WilliamsStarsKeith JordanWyatt FennerSteve CallahanA gay student who is "out" at college but not to his family receives an unexpected visit from his boyfriend while at home during the holidays.
- DirectorCory KrueckebergStarsTanner CohenMatthew CampRamon O. TorresA shy but smitten college boy pursues a NY go-go boy through the pretext of making a documentary film about him, with the guys knowing each other only as "Doc" and "Go."
- DirectorJ.C. CalcianoStarsHouston RhinesNoah SchuffmanMatt LewisA gay man nearing 30, and in a 7-year relationship rut, taps into an otherworldly Internet ad that starts omnisciently controlling his life.
- DirectorJ.C. CalcianoStarsJack TurnerMichael Adam HamiltonTeri ReevesBest friends make a pact to be together in a decade if neither finds love. With two months left until their deadline, they both scramble to find someone to avoid being each other's last resort.
- DirectorPhillip J. BartellStarsJim VerrarosEmily Brooke HandsRebekah KochanAfter Marc dumps him, Kyle unites with Gwen and Tiffani to land sexually confused art model Troy by pretending to be straight. However, Marc wants Troy, too, and members from a notorious "ex-gay" group are slipping for the both of them.
- DirectorQ. Allan BrockaStarsDerek MagyarGeorge JonsonPatrick BauchauA successful male escort describes in a series of confessions his tangled romantic relationships with his two roommates and an older, enigmatic male client.
- DirectorGlenn GaylordStarsRebekah KochanDaniel SkeltonChris SalvatoreA gay Internet connection is made, but entanglements ensue due to hiding behind the name and photo of a straight male stripper who happens to return to the area.
- DirectorJim FallStarsChristian CampbellJohn Paul PitocTori SpellingThe misadventures of two young gay men, trying to find a place to be alone, one night in Manhattan.
- DirectorTom GustafsonStarsTanner CohenWendy RobieJudy McLaneA bullied and demoralized gay student at an all-boys school uses a magical flower derived from Shakespeare's "A Midsummer Night's Dream' to turn many in his community gay, including a comely rugby player for himself.
- DirectorAndrew NackmanStarsParker YoungEvan ToddChord OverstreetA car mechanic in a small, working class town comes out of the closet to his unsuspecting, blue-collar best friends.
- DirectorCraig JohnsonStarsMichael AbelaDaniel DohenyBrendan ArcherAlex, high school class president, nerd and a straight A student, has been dating Claire a long time. They decide to sleep together but then he meets a gay guy and he's confused.
- DirectorClaudio MarconeStarsFrancisco CelhayEmilio EdwardsDaniela RamírezBruno, an architect with a great life, is hired to build an iconic landmark, and as he works with a gay history teacher named Fer, an unexpected and intense romance starts to blossom.
- DirectorGreg BerlantiStarsNick RobinsonJennifer GarnerJosh DuhamelSimon Spier keeps a huge secret from his family, his friends and all of his classmates: he's gay. When that secret is threatened, Simon must face everyone and come to terms with his identity.
- DirectorKristin HanggiStarsVictoria JusticePierson FodeMatthew DaddarioNaomi and Ely have loved each other their whole lives, even though Ely isn't exactly into girls. The institution of a "No Kiss List" has prevented the two from rifts in the past, but bonds are tested when they both fall for the same guy.
- DirectorEliza HittmanStarsHarris DickinsonMadeline WeinsteinKate HodgeA Brooklyn teenager spends his days experimenting with drugs and looking online for older men to meet.
- DirectorJustin KellyStarsGarrett ClaytonChristian SlaterMolly RingwaldVeteran gay pornography producer Stephen battles two rival producers over the rights to his underage porn star creation, Brent Corrigan, with deadly results.
- DirectorDarren SteinStarsMichael J. WillettPaul IaconoSasha PieterseWhat happens after Tanner is outed by his classmates and becomes the title "gay best friend" for three high school queen bees?
- DirectorGary EntinStarsCameron Deane StewartJustin DeeleyMeaghan MartinAt Goodkind High School, a group of students with varying sexual orientations form an after-school club as a discreet way to share their feelings and experiences.
- DirectorRussell P. MarleauStarsTad HilgenbrinkBrett ChukermanAldevina Da SilvaA confident, out-of-the-closet gay teenager has the support of an eclectic range of friends while dealing with a homophobic bully during his first year at an international high school.
- DirectorMauro CarvalhoThiago CazadoStarsThiago CazadoPaulo SousaJuliana ZancanaroReserved and solitary, young Lucas lives with his religious aunt in a tranquil country town. When his aunt charitably agrees to let his cousin, Mario, fresh out of jail, stay for a while, mischief and joy affect the whole little community.
- DirectorSven J. MattenStarsChad ConnellDavid CameronMimi KuzykStrong emotions - fear and panic, self-search and isolation, love and sex, self-denial and self-discovery - a ride on an emotional roller coaster while trying to find one's way into life.
- DirectorNils BökampStarsGeorge TaylorEric KlotzschMichal GrabowskiThree immature guys drive around a remote region of Germany, fooling around and taking photographs.
- DirectorJames BoltonStarsStephan BenderThomas Jay RyanDiana ScarwidBased on the novel "Dream Boy" by Jim Grimsley, this film chronicles the relationship between two gay teenagers in the rural south in the late 70's.
- DirectorJoseph GrahamStarsBenjamin BonenfantNick FrangioneArtem MishinA handsome young prostitute learns about life and love during a sex-filled odyssey in an apartment building filled with strange inhabitants.
- DirectorSimon PearceChristian MartinStarsWayne VirgoMarc LaurentTom BottA closeted teenage street punk takes up with the latest roughed-up gay victim of his bullying gang, which does not set well with the gang's drugged-up, brotherly leader.
- DirectorAluizio AbranchesStarsJúlia LemmertzFábio AssunçãoJean Pierre NoherTwo brothers develop a very close relationship as they are growing up in an idyllic and happy family. When they are young adults their relationship becomes very intimate, romantic, and sexual.
- DirectorChristian FaureStarsCyrille ThouveninStéphan Guérin-TilliéÉva DarlanAfter his gay cousin dies from hepatitis, young Laurent, who lives with his best friend Carole, falls in love with Cedric, a plant scientist. He's afraid to inform his conservative parents that he is gay.
- DirectorÁdám CsásziStarsAndrás SütöÁdám VargaSebastian UrzendowskySzabolcs quits football against his father's will and returns to his country in Hungary to take charge of an inheritance from his grandfather. There, he meets Aron and they both explore their identities.
- DirectorBenjamin CantuStarsLukas SteltnerKai Michael MüllerSteven BaadeA drama that tracks the relationship between two young apprentices working on an agricultural complex south of Berlin.
- DirectorSergio Tovar VelardeStarsAntonio VelázquezAlejandro de la MadridCesar RamosFour stories of love and disgust between men of different generations facing their conflicts and their fears
- DirectorFilipe MatzembacherMarcio ReolonStarsMateus AlmadaMaurício BarcellosElisa BritesTwo boys on the edge of adulthood find themselves exploring their relationship.
- DirectorStephen DunnStarsAaron AbramsJack FultonJoanne KellyA creative and driven teenager is desperate to escape his hometown and the haunting memories of his turbulent childhood.
- DirectorLuca GuadagninoStarsTimothée ChalametArmie HammerMichael StuhlbargIn 1980s Italy, romance blossoms between a seventeen-year-old student and the older man hired as his father's research assistant.
- DirectorYan EnglandStarsAntoine Olivier PilonSophie NélisseLou-Pascal TremblayTim, a shy 16 years old athlete, is both brilliant and talented. But the pressure he undergoes pushes him to the edge, where human limits reach the point of no return.
- DirectorQ. Allan BrockaStarsChris SalvatoreDaniel SkeltonAaron MiloTemptations at a drama camp threaten a gay relationship that may already be cooling.
- DirectorQ. Allan BrockaStarsAaron MiloChris PuckettChris SalvatoreZack is gaycationing in Palm Springs with new BF Benji who, to Zack's dismay, wants to try an open relationship. Adding confusion is Casey, Zack's ex, with Peter, his fake BF, plus Casey's fruity friend, Penny, and Zack's friend Lilly.
- DirectorQ. Allan BrockaStarsScott LunsfordJim VerrarosEmily Brooke HandsAfter getting dumped by his slutty girlfriend, Caleb falls in love with Gwen. However, thanks to Caleb's roommate, Gwen thinks he's gay and sets him up with her roommate, Marc.
- DirectorJ.T. TepnapaStarsRichard HarmonGenevieve BuechnerCharlie DavidA quirk in time and space gives a failed filmmaker the chance to reshape his destiny when he visits his peculiar alma mater.
- DirectorMarco BergerMartín FarinaStarsGabriel EpsteinLucas PapaNicolás BarsoffA man invites another guy he trains with to spend some time in his country house among other male friends.
- DirectorRussell MulcahyStarsSigourney WeaverHenry CzernyRyan KelleyTrue story of Mary Griffith, gay rights crusader, whose teenage son committed suicide due to her religious intolerance. Based on the book of the same title by Leroy Aarons.
- DirectorTennyson BardwellStarsMichael McMillianLea CocoSteve FletcherHigh school senior Dorian begins a gay man's odyssey when he determines that he's gay and decides to come out. Chief among concerns is the reaction of his father, who has never liked him.
- DirectorMarcelo Briem StammStarsPatricio RamosMario VerónCarlos EchevarríaA sexy, romantic and uncomfortably chilling story from first time director Marcelo Briem Stamm. Handsome middle class Manuel (Patrico Ramos), hurt by his previous relationship and bored being alone, meets Julio (Mario Veron), a rugged, lonely, unemployed young man in a chat room. The two eventually meet up in person and the sexual spark is quickly ignited. And while sex is satisfying and frequent, it is their collective problems with intimacy, trust and the fear of being hurt that make them hesitant to commit fully. As their relationship develops, both reveal secrets from their past but these revelations might be real, imagined or outright lies. Who is being truthful, who is real, and who truly loves the other? All is revealed in this romantic, passionate drama/thriller that offers a shocking, strangely satisfying conclusion. (Spanish with English subtitles)
- DirectorDavid OliverasStarsTye OlsonKyle ClareEllie AraizaA story about two classmates - one smart and openly gay and the other school swimming star. They grow as friends and discover their attraction to each other.
- 2001–20031h 26mUnrated6.9 (2.1K)TV Episode52MetascoreDirectorFabrice CazeneuveStarsJulien BaumgartnerJulia MaravalJérémie ElkaïmWhen Vincent finds himself a victim of outing in his high school, he must accept to live with the drastic changes it provokes, and redefine his relationships with his friends and family.
- DirectorAlan BrownStarsHale ApplemanCharlie BarnettAdam BarrieA modern take on Shakespeare's 'Romeo and Juliet'. Set at an isolated all-boys military academy, it follows the forbidden relationship between two cadets.
- DirectorRichard LeMayStarsBen WeaverKarmine AlersS. Lue McWilliamsLove, loss and hope are tumultuously explored amidst a tranquil backdrop and asks us all the question: What is your dream?
- DirectorGus Van SantStarsRiver PhoenixKeanu ReevesJames RussoTwo best friends living on the streets of Portland as hustlers embark on a journey of self discovery and find their relationship stumbling along the way.
- DirectorTom FordStarsColin FirthJulianne MooreMatthew GoodeAn English professor, one year after the sudden death of his boyfriend, is unable to cope with his typical days in 1960s Los Angeles.
- DirectorXavier VillaverdeStarsAstrid Bergès-FrisbeyÁlvaro CervantesLlorenç GonzálezThe established relationship between university student Bruno and aspiring photographer Carla is thrown into turmoil when Bruno feels drawn to sexy karate instructor/break dancer Rai. Complications ensue.
- DirectorGreg BerlantiStarsTimothy OlyphantDean CainZach BraffAn insight into the turbulent lives and loves of a gay clique based in Los Angeles.
- DirectorGregg ArakiStarsBrady CorbetJoseph Gordon-LevittElisabeth ShueTwo pre-adolescent boys both experienced a strange event and later it affects their lives in different ways. One becomes a reckless, sexually adventurous prostitute, while the other retreats into a reclusive fantasy of alien abduction.
- DirectorAntonia BirdStarsLinus RoacheTom WilkinsonRobert CarlyleA homosexual Catholic priest finds out during confessional that a young girl is being sexually abused by her father, and has to decide how to deal with both that secret and his own.
- DirectorElla LemhagenStarsGustaf SkarsgårdTorkel PeterssonTom LjungmanA Swedish gay couple adopt what they think is an 18-month-old orphan, only to meet their new son, a 15-year-old homophobic delinquent.
- DirectorD.M.W. GreerStarsTrent FordTammy BlanchardMorgan SpectorTwo Navy fighter pilots find themselves in the midst of a forbidden relationship throwing their lives and careers into disarray.
- DirectorOlivier DucastelJacques MartineauStarsMario FanfaniGeoffrey CouëtFrançois NambotTwo men meet in a sex club, become entangled in a passionate embrace, and spend the night getting to know each other. As they wander through the empty streets of Paris, they must confront the feelings that are growing between them.
- DirectorAlain GuiraudieStarsPierre DeladonchampsChristophe PaouPatrick d'AssumçaoSummertime. A cruising spot for men, tucked away on the shores of a lake. Franck falls in love with Michel, an attractive, potent and lethally dangerous man. Franck knows this but wants to live out his passion anyway.
- DirectorBernard ShumanskiHarry ShumanskiStarsForth RichardsBenji CrisnisTheo MontgomeryAn edgy drama about a gay teen's tumultuous decent into drugs and anonymous sex, Wrecked smashes cinematic taboos while it spins its cautionary tale. Ryan is an earnest 18-year-old trying to develop a career as an actor and getting his life on the right track. This course is quickly threatened with the sudden arrival of his sort-of ex, Daniel, who arrives at Ryan's door wanting a place to stay and offering the promise of a normal, loving relationship. But Daniel's drug addiction and attitude towards casual sex derail any hope for normalcy and soon ensnares Ryan in his own downward spiral. Handheld cameras, a hot young cast and a boldly upfront approach to sex combine to make Wrecked a unique film experience.
- DirectorPeter AhlénStarsNicolas WollesenMads HjulmandSofie Topp-DuusMørke Rum (Perpetual) is an unconventional love story that centers around a private booth at a seedy sex club. The young Sebastian explores his sexuality and seeking sex/love online. He meets the older Jacob, who takes him to a sex club. In the new and frightening surroundings Sebastian surrenders and in their subsequent meetings love sprouts, at least for Sebastian. Outside the darkness of intense togetherness, the reality penetrates. Jacob is full of lust and not love. So when Sebastian's hopes are disappointed and Jacob pulls away, Sebastian returns to the dark room to restore the lost with a stranger
- DirectorBruce La BruceStarsPier-Gabriel LajoieWalter BordenKatie BolandA young man begins exploring his attraction to much much older men while working in a nursing home.
- DirectorNiels Arden OplevStarsVillads BøyeAnders W. BerthelsenSidse Babett KnudsenMartin (14) is forced to deal with confused sexuality and the loss of a mother in a provincial setting in the mid-seventies, where the famed Danish liberation of porn has had its influence on the grownups.
- DirectorJames IvoryStarsJames WilbyRupert GravesHugh GrantTwo English school chums find themselves falling in love at Cambridge. To regain his place in society, Clive gives up Maurice and marries. While staying with Clive and his wife, Maurice discovers romance in the arms of the gamekeeper Alec.
- DirectorMarek KanievskaStarsRupert EverettColin FirthMichael JennBased on the life of the young Guy Burgess, who would become better known as one of the Cambridge Spies.
- DirectorErlingur ThoroddsenStarsBjörn StefánssonSigurður Þór ÓskarssonGuðmundur ÓlafssonTwo men's broken relationship is tested as they are haunted by a supernatural entity awakened by their grief.
- DirectorAgnieszka HollandStarsLeonardo DiCaprioDavid ThewlisRomane BohringerYoung, wild poet Arthur Rimbaud and his mentor Paul Verlaine engage in a fierce, forbidden romance while feeling the effects of a hellish artistic lifestyle.
- DirectorTom ShanklandStarsLee WilliamsMarc WarrenEmily HolmesYoung Tim Cornish's life has begun with great promise. Blessed with extraordinary good looks, Tim enjoyed much attention and cared little of broken hearts. At University he was a favored student in a prestigious creative writing course, but a chance meeting, a stolen kiss and a sudden flare of passion sets Tim on a journey of betrayal, heartbreak and murder. In a flashback, he tells his story of cruelty, love and a soul-destroying guilt that offers little chance for redemption.
- DirectorGaël MorelStarsStéphane RideauDimitri DurdaineBéatrice DalleDark, dangerous and supremely sexy, Our Paradise casts a thrilling glance at the lives of two rentboys in the heart of Paris.
- DirectorMichael BurkeStarsEmile HirschRichard JenkinsTom GuiryThe film follows the story of Duncan, a fourteen-year-old misfit farm boy trying to fill the void and alleviate the numbness left by his mother's passing. Unable to let her go quite yet, Duncan mimics his dead mother. He talks in her voice at the dinner table and wears her fur coat to bed. Edgar, Duncan's distant sixty-year-old father, doesn't understand the strange manifestations of his son's mourning. Why can't Duncan grieve like a normal person? Macho mate Perry Foley, who has it physically even harder on his dad's farm, usually comforts Duncan and defends his 'wimpiness' to their cocky ruffian mates Travis, Scotty and Brent. But although clearly attracted to gentle Duncan himself, the socially unacceptable suggestion of 'sissy' homosexuality makes Perry over-react and turn on his friend.
- DirectorStephen ChboskyStarsLogan LermanEmma WatsonEzra MillerCharlie, a 15-year-old introvert, enters high school and is nervous about his new life. When he befriends his seniors, he learns to cope with his friend's suicide and his tumultuous past.